Absolutely fed up

[daisychainarainyday]

I'm 46, retuned to work after being a stay at home mum, alas working part time (15 hrs a week)...my DS is in year 1 and DD n year 2.

I've been back at work for 6 months now and I still feel totally out of place. Everyone feels younger and smarter. I feel like I can't explain myself properly - make mistakes and just miss being home with my little ones so much.

Does anyone else relate?

I'm thinking of applying for a job that I can do at home so I don't have to commute to work.

I only work 25 hours and can pick the kids up etc.

I used to love my job but now it makes me feel sad ...hankering for a time when I did love it of that makes sense.

Please be kind,

Anyone

Reading your situation, I can completely understand how you feel, and I suppose after 6 months in your role, you would be expecting to feel more settled and confident by now.

If I were you, I'm not sure I would be looking for a role that would make me feel even more out of the loop and isolated, though.

How are your working relationships with your colleagues? Do you enjoy the social aspects?

If you feel that that job or that particular environment isn't right for you, why don't you give it another 5/6 months and then look for something else?

Are you working in a specialist field, or can you think about other industries?

@NeverGuessWho thank you for your reply.

To be honest, I want to apply for the other job because it's working from home, and I think that's where I want to be. I did a lot of working from home in my current job but now I have to return to the workplace.

I just can't seem to find myself - I just feel I need to move on

An update ...I applied for the other job.
Shall see what happens
Anyone else feel like me -please let me know what made the change for you.

Yep. I felt like an alien. I returned at 47 and I felt like I'd entered a surreal world. Everyone is younger, no one has kids and if I'm honest I have no friends at work. If I left I don't think I would speak to anyone again. Everyone is very good, kind and support any minorities - as it should be. But older women are just looked over.
Now a few years later I've found my space and I don't mind, I'm still sad I don't have friends at work but I also have gained strength from my independence.

Thanks @Firenzeflower .
Did you change jobs or stay?