Do I quit my job?

[soraiseyourglass]

I'm 33.
I spent 10 years being a full time carer for my gran till she passed away.
My gran brought me up after my mum died.
My gran was my best friend.
We had lovely days together,even tho she had dementia ,she knew who I was till the end.
I honestly miss her with all my heart and I have a part of me missing now she's gone.
She passed two years ago.
I had no job in the 10 years and I applied for a job as a care assistant in a nursing home.
(I posted before when I started getting upset )
I tried to push through but I'm crying every day at work.
All of the elderly ladies remind me of my gran and I can't stand it.
I miss my gran so much and it sounds stupid but I feel like I'm betraying my gran by looking after the ladies at the care home.
Playing games with them upsets me because I used to do it with my gran.
I don't know what to do
I'm on my dinner upset
Do I just quit ?

Yeah, I think if it's making you too sad then you should quit. Your heart is in the right place but you're still grieving

Your gran was very fortunate to have you take care of her full time. These people don't, for whatever reason. So think of it as honouring your gran by treating these women/men to something they may not have. You have special insight and experience, and perhaps the best way of remembering your gran is to impart this care to others.
However if you really find you can't, then look for another job, maybe caring for children? Or something completely different.

It might be better to look for something that isn't going to remind you of your grief so constantly and acutely yeah. Sorry for your loss.

Look at working with disabled children, young people or adults instead. You can still utilise all your skills but will be more manageable emotionally

Agree with previous poster, continue to work in care but with a different age group.

If you have to support yourself be aware that if you quit a job they don't need to pay you benefits for months. So you'd need a considerable amount of savings to get by.

Does the place you currently work in have other care facilities for other people that aren't elderly so you could perhaps swap jobs to somewhere else?