Sorry for boring you.

[Walkingdisaster24]

For years I have been posting on here . About my life and family life things surrounding it. Its been hell at times and all the bad stuff has out weighted the good stuff for years. It's made me feel pretty close to the edge at times.

I have had a few people on here be pretty horrible and judgemental to me on here. At some pretty awful times. But I have never felt overly hurt by what's been said. I think possibly because I have been through so much hell In life that the comments don't really hit deeply . Maybe it's like a protective barrier.

Anyway I still have stuff going on. But it feels much less tense than before.i don't feel so mentally and emotionally fucked up.

The scary bit is I'm always waiting for something to happen because it always does . But in trying my best not to give it any thought and try and do some positive and normal things.

Before I couldn't fo very badic things like get a shower/bath when I wanted to . I couldn't do basic cooking. But now I can .

I'm going to try and have a good 6 weeks with the kids pray that it can be positive. Get my house sorted. Try and make it feel positive

If anyone actually read this I'm sorry it was so boring

It’s not boring. Sorry that you are having a hard time. It’s great that you are finding it easier to cope at the moment but it’s okay if you can’t.

What are your plans for the next 6 weeks?

Sounds like you've made such great progress, OP.

Well done, you should be really proud of yourself 💕

For what it’s worth, I’ve liked reading all your posts.
Though I do wish you would stop being so hard on yourself.
Maybe if you gave yourself a nice and positive username it might change your outlook and you can start by thinking of all the things you have done to change your and your children’s lives for the better!

I was boring myself as I got to the end 🤣.

I don't really have much plans . I want to organise my house make Easier to keep clean and feel nicer to be in.

Days out wise it's going to have to be cheap/free stuff . Will find something I'm sure.

You're not boring anyone, don't put yourself down 😘

Enjoy the summer holidays and have some fun!

I hope you have a great summer with the kids. It sounds like you really deserve it, so I’m channelling positive thoughts and good luck your way! And I agree with the idea of changing your username to give you a cheerful, summer, fresh start vibe. RayofSunshine, or something like that….

Thank you i know they can be a nit depressing. But I think that's just me sort of of loading.

The user names. They are a mixed thing. Sometimes it might be because I feel angry or frustrated with myself. Sometimes it's it's based on what my post is about. Sometimes yes it is because I'm being hard on myself because thats how I feel at the time.

Abd yeah I'm going to start doing my things that are positive for the kids even if its little things.

I think you showed us pictures of the kids room you decorated?
You did great, not boring, hope you're doing ok

Yeah that was a while back now. They have been doing well with keeping it tidy I do think decorating it helped. I think they needed it to feel like a child's bedroom.

Good for you, who cares what other people think. Have a great time with your kids. 💐

You are not boring. You are doing well and I hope things improve for you. I wish you all the good fortune in the world.

I feel like boring can be good sometimes 😅 and thank you 😊

“I'm going to start doing my things that are positive for the kids even if its little things.”

That’s really lovely to hear 😀
What have you got in mind?
I really enjoyed your decorating and panelling projects. I think you are quite an inspiration to many of us on here!

Thank you. Not really done anything else since then. Sadly.

Just small things with the kids . Like parks. Out on their bikes. Because of other things I had going on its Been very hard to leave the house without overly worrying and all the stress that went with it all . But now that's slowing it should be easier.

I don't think you are boring, I think that is inspiring! You are turning things around and that makes me so happy for you! Have the best Summer with your kids Xxx

No you’re not boring. You’re struggling through like many of us. But you’re right to look at fun things to do with your children. You’ll feel so much better once you can see your children enjoying themselves with you.
there are lots of things you can do without spending much money. I find children are happy when their parent is enjoying spending time with them. It’s a good idea to focus on the six weeks holidays. Good luck and enjoy the summer!

Yeah I agree. I can take them out on their bikes. Roller skates, take them to the woods. We can play basket ball. Do things at home as well .

Yes and if you plan it out in advance it can be even more fun. I used to be good at this stuff but the past few years I’ve lost my energy but your post reminded me of myself and it’s about enjoying the moments. Also there are some good free offers sometimes too. If you go to any children’s centres they might have summer activity program

I could bore you to death with all the shit things I have got going on in my life right now and like you I'm always expecting something else because that's usually how it goes for me lol. I know some people think that just opening your curtains or cooking a meal is anything to be proud of but when you feel like there's nothing to live for anymore it's a massive deal to think positive and to do something you couldn't do yesterday. I hope you have a great summer with your kids and even if it's just taking them to a field to see how many 4 leaf clovers they can find each it's a start and it's completely free lol, I realise that's not the greatest top tip you will ever receive but I used to do that with my kids and it kept them focused and entertained lol