I wonder if anyone has advice on managing this behaviour / personality trait;
I find it very difficult to moderate, I've always been excessive, drank a lot as a young person, did too many drugs although always worked very hard and been very industrious. In my late 20's I turned my energies to exercise and developed a real love for a particular sport which then dominated my spare time. My partner also did said sport and so our lives revolved around that a lot. I wasn't drinking much and stopped doing drugs entirely. The sport was the outlet for my excessive nature and life was good. Then we had kids and the sport has very much fallen by the wayside (for both of us). I've struggled to feel content and I think part of the reason is that I have no outlet for my excessive urges. I've started drinking; not excessively (I don't get drunk) but more often than I should and I feel like I am drinking for the wrong reasons; like I need to escape. I am also always to some extent fighting the urge to have another one (which I do, because I have small kids but I am not sure I would fight it if they weren't there). I had a coffee this morning and instead of thinking 'that's nice' and getting on with my day I wanted to have another one immediately. Like my brain is just constantly wanting more of something I like.
Does anyone recognise this type of behaviour and if so do you have any tips of materials that might help me manage myself? I often feel uneasy and dissatisfied with life.