Background- DH of 15 years cheated on me last year when I was on Maternity leave so I ended the marriage. My on my own with very little help from him at all with a 8 year old, 2 year old and 1 year old. I've returned to work part time.
My two youngest ones are just relentless, constant sickness one after the other from Nursery. Non stop moaning, crying and constantly needing things. They have been in nursery 5 months now and the sickness shows no sign of stopping.
I am at the lowest I've ever felt in my life, I feel angry, snappy, getting next to no sleep with the two youngest up with sickness and everything else. No time for myself at all. Struggling financially and had to default on loads of things and not my credit rating has dropped to next to nothing. Spoke to debt people which was useless as they just suggested going bankrupt which will only make things worse. DH sees the children when it suits him and pays £200 to me each month that's all. He's very manipulative and emotionally abusive.
I started counselling through work but to date I'm not finding it super helpful in terms of day to day life. I really can't cope anymore and I don't know what to do. How did I get to this place. I can't stop crying. I fear where my mind is going to take me to next.