I know I need to just do it but I keep putting it off
41 . I feel utterly run down, exhausted, my head is never quiet like ever. Even typing this I'm thinking of 2 other things. It's constant noise. I'm starting to think I'm odd. I have set ways of everything, hate no routine, and starting to struggle socially especially if it's out of the ' norm'
Good happy family life with dh and dcs.
I do more ' chores' but that's because I enjoy it and find it therapeutic. Kids can be a little hard work but that's normal for all kids.
I've also put on a stone. I was already over weight I'm now 13.5 stone.
The last 4 weeks I've halved calories. Walked loads , less junk more fibre and protein just generally much healthier food.
I'm fact some days I've barely eaten example small bowl weetabix 3x a day.
I used to diet and lose fast. For example a stone in 6 weeks.
My legs feel really heavy. It's a huge effort to walk, bend , go upstairs etc. I feel they don't belong to me .
I know it sounds absolutely batshit and it would be seeing the gp about a few things ( she's usually good with that as prefers than going a few times )
I had my over 40s check 9 months ago and iirc all bloods were normal some were close to the recommended.
So as not to drip feed later on. I previously suffered with my MH. In late teens on venlafaxine. Then again late 20s with anxiety depression and panic attacks. Been off meds for 9 years.
I also had an ED the gp was unaware. I took laxatives after every ' naughty' food. I lost 3 stone in 4 months.
It has crossed my mind numerous times to do this again but I've fought the urge for 6 months now. To the point of actually putting them in my trolley and putting back before checkout. But its been so hard.