Work is destroying my self-confidence & mental health...

[Startingagainandagain]

I am being constantly sidelined and undermined in my workplace by people in my team and it seems with the blessing of my manager.

Only this week I was supposed attend a meeting with external people and two members of my team moved it to another, earlier date without even telling me. I was only informed once the meeting had taken place.

There has been a pattern of this happening (being left out of meetings, information not being shared with me and people doing things that would need my approval/input without consulting me) for the past six months.

The team generally openly looks down on me now and there have been a few digs at my skills/experience/personality.

All of this started after I came back from sick leave. I had an awful mental health breakdown, needed support from the mental health crisis team and was off for a month and a half. I am the oldest person in the team and as far as I know the only one with a long term health condition.

I am job hunting because I want out of this toxic environment but I am finding that I have lost a lot of my self-confidence and now doubt myself and my skills in the workplace, although I have held similar jobs for years at a senior level without problems.

This is also making me seriously anxious on my days off and I am worried my mental health is going to take a turn for the worse again.

Has anyone been in this situation? any advice?

so your meeting invite wasn’t updated?
or it was all arranged verbally?

how long have you been there?

Sorry to hear this.

Firstly we all face illness and ill health at some point and your colleagues need to get over it.

Most importantly is your wellbeing - how is your mental health now, do you have enough support in place.

I think you need to address this quickly. What do you want to happen? Do you want it to be resolved? Informally or formally?

To answer the queries:

-I have worked there for almost 2 years (my health condition is a disability though and I have declared it to HR).

-Yes the meeting date was agreed and then they had discussion with the external people without me knowing and moved the date 4 days earlier than planned and I was told the day after they met.

-I am having weekly counselling through the NHS and take medication, but every time I have to work the stress is really affecting me.

-the best outcome would be for me to find a new job but in the meantime I am keeping a journal of everything that is said/done to me.

i wonder whether your colleagues have been told to limit any kind of anything that may in off chance cause you stress?