Am I going crazy?

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I really need some advice because I think I might be losing my mind. Today I walked into my kitchen and it felt like everything was bigger, like the work tops and table where higher up or that I was smaller. I’ve been feeling dizzy a lot, it passes when I sit down for a while. I get migraine aura every couple of months, I get flashing lights in front of my eyes that completely cover my visual field so I need to lay down and close my eyes for about 20 minutes until it passes, I don’t get a headache with this. So am I going crazy? I have anxiety and my biggest fear is that I am going to lose my mind, my sister has severe psychosis and I worry I am going to end up the same. Has anyone else had these symptoms and it turned out something other than losing your mind? Could the fact that everything looked bigger be some form of migraine? I don’t want to go to the doctor because I’m afraid they will say that I have lost it. My baby isn’t sleeping well, I am exhausted, could these just be symptoms of lack of sleep? Please no harsh replies as I’m feeling pretty fragile

Could it be Alice in wonderland syndrome??

The migraine you describe is an ocular or visual migraine. Lack of sleep and stress can be migraine triggers. Please see your GP. They will want to help you - describe what is happening to them. That sounds like something else, but it's probably all connected to your exhaustion.

There could be many different health issues causing you to have these symptoms. It could be over-tiredness, the migraines, the onset of flu/covid, or just some temporary chemical imbalance. But there's nothing in your post which would make me think you are "losing your mind" in any way. You sound rational enough. I would go to your GP. They're not going to call you crazy.

I don’t want to go to the doctor because I’m afraid they will say that I have lost it.

The doctor will do no such thing. The only people who might say that you have lost it are people in your social circle who have a tendency to cruelty and mocking illness and disability. You probably don't know too many people like that, but you might discover that you do.

This could be nothing, maybe just stress or migraine-lite. Or it could be treatable with some mild drugs for a few weeks. Or it could be some kind of growth, but even then, nearly 3/4 of brain growths are not malignant tumours and they can often be treated with 100% success.

It's quite unlikely to be psychosis. And even if it is, psychosis comes in a lot of forms, many of them entirely controllable with what is often quite mild medication.

So go and see the doctor. You owe it to yourself and your family.