Anyone awake? Relationship is over

[Buildmeeup]

Hasn't technically ended yet but I know it will, either he will do it or I will have to.

It's been a long road, I feel really bitter and angry, but I'm also upset and just need a hand hold.

Hello op. I’m sorry to hear this for you. I was single in my 40s and experienced a gut wrenching break up after dating for 5 yrs. I do feel the deep helpless painful feelings of ending a relationship do fade and you will heal. Looking back now I now he was not the lifelong dp/dh I was seeking but rather a watered down not quite as mean version of my ex husband. But I did love him very much. It takes time. Took me 1.5 yrs to even date again. The pain is necessary don’t ru to mask or escape it. Love yourself first and foremost.

Yeah I’m up…what has happened to make it be over. And if you are sad about it, then why is it inevitable that it is over? Can it be worked on?

I know the feeling of when it’s over and all you can do is sit helpless with the overwhelming pain. A month ago I was in love with someone who I thought I knew but he was in deep love with his ex the whole time- I saw messages where he told her he didn’t wanna stop speaking to her and how much he hated sex with me. That hurt. I was very depressed and wanted to end it but it’s not been a full month and I’m completely over him. He is a weak lost selfish and just overall wanker individual who I wasted my short time on and he will never get the chance to have any access to me again. I did get a fan and a gift card out of the bast@rd though! It will hurt unbelievably but you’ll get over it I promise and wonder what on earth you saw in him/her! And the sadness will turn to anger and the anger will turn to pity for them. Take it from someone who would get pregnant the next day for him and saw him as my best friend to someone who really wishes him and his ex are happy because they’re both rats! It will happen and you will glow up and shine!
I am not bothered with dating ever again or for a very long time and am focusing on my hobbies, travelling, friends and family. I also make sure that I curl my hair nice and do a full glam face with lashes and nails if I’m going out😊people place too much on relationships. Most of them end and if you ask me, they’re more hassle than they’re worth!
take care xxxx