Or, maybe the idea that they want me.
I'm single 3 years and the idea of a serious relationship, combining home and finances, even having one person I "usually" do things like holidays and days out with, does not appeal at all.
However, whenever a man shows any interest in me, or I meet a man who seems like a possibility, I'm on tenterhooks waiting for him to text or suggest meeting up. Even when they're really nothing special.
It's horrible, like being a teenager, but it's not that I particularly care about these men, or want anything they might offer.
What work do I need to do on myself to not be constantly checking my phone for something I don't even want?!