Starting on cigarettes again

[GoneCat]

I used to smoke as a teenager and smoked until my 30s. It was getting to expensive so I changed to vape. The vape was the best thing ever for me. I was on the vape for a few years. Then I gave up by accident.

Then in January of this year I went through a patch of absolute fucking hell on this earth. My mother is aging and she wasn't behaving well. Then there was an evening in work were I got a load of cranky abuse from my employer over changing wet bedclothes because they wanted the wet ones just to remain on a bed.

That night after work I was utterly fazed to fuck. Everyone around me aleere cunts. I went straight to the nearest shop for cigarettes and a lighter and then to the pub. The first cigarette was horrible and so was the second one. The third one was not nice either. I decided not to have any more but I smoked the pack anyways too while ordering a new supply of vape stuff. I am vaping sense then.

I am in a place where I feel like I badly need to get back into some packets of cigarettes. Cunt bags left right and centre of me.

You must know that smoking isn't the answer to your problems.
Very obvious reasons why smoking and vapes are terrible for you.

Smoking will only lead you to an early grave, is absolutely disgusting, expensive and it harms everyone around you.

Find a more mature and healthy way to deal with life. Maybe look at meditation? Counselling? Doing a sport to release endorphins?

But smoking is only hurting yourself? Hurting your wallet and your health.

Can you find another outlet to your stress?

Running works for me, but maybe kick-boxing or Zumba - what's yours thing?

@GoneCat I'm a smoker and I completely understand. Sometimes a cigarette is just the thing you need. But maybe you just need to get away from all the cuntbags and then you can quit again 😊

Go back to the vape rather than the cigs

Why not search for gangrene and chronic limb threatening ischaemia? That’s what happens to women who continue to smoke .

or Emphysema or coronary heart disease or lung cancer.

I totally get it. When I am under a lot of stress, the first thing that comes to mind is a cigarette. I even sometimes let myself have one. Just one. Because I hate it. It does not do what it used to.

You crave a state of mind, really. The stress build (you recognise this). The desire for the stress relief builds (you recognise this) so your mind tells you what it knows - a cigarette fixes this.

But that is old information, and if you have one, it is not a fix. That is disappointing. I know because 14 years later, I occasionally buy cigarettes (each time totally stunned by the price!).

Once I experience the light headed kind of nausea, I give the packet to the next homeless person I see. They trade them. I write it off as a reminder. I do not smoke anymore, they no longer give comfort of any kind. I am finished being a smoker. Sometimes I just need a reminder.

Agree with @Snugglemonkey but get away from the c*ntbags

I did this too, started smoking again last year and my god I loved them this time around. Then just three weeks ago I decided I needed to wise up, I know it looks and smells disgusting and costs a fortune. I went cold turkey and haven’t smoked since.

There are times when I really really want to but I don’t. You can do it OP!!

Get some nicotine gum or lozenges. It's not worth the stink and the health fears.

I sometimes think about taking them back up too and am off them 20 years.

It feels like a very carefree, rebellious thing to do and I imagine it would make me feel better but actually it would just be a huge mistake and I don’t need them at all.

Neither do you. They are not going to solve your problems, just add to them. Then you would have the problems and be a smoker and also down money too. You would be punishing yourself, not anyone else.