Alone and a bit panicky

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Just that. Not long out of a long relationship (my choice - no spark- but nice man), children grown, best friend a long way away, very small family a long way away. Work colleagues see me as a confident and independent person - and I am and seem to be functioning well.
But. I feel a bit scared and a bit lonely and rather pathetic - and I can’t tell anyone in real life.
Even listening to myself here I feel a bit irritated with me! After all, I’m okay and on the face of it very lucky.
Would usually chat to my fella but that can’t happen now - think I must have used him as a prop.
Will it get better?

Yes, it definitely can get better, but solidarity with feeling a bit shitty and scared right now.

First thing, it's not always easy, but try not to blame yourself or be unkind to yourself. Your finding yourself irritating jumped out at me, as I do similar.

Thank you.

It might look a bit cheesy, but this book is great to help you move forward and widen your life out a bit:

Feel the Fear

The follow on book “…and beyond” is excellent too.