Was it necessary?

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For context I'm adhd/autistic I find it hard to read people such as jokes, witty humour, seriousness, bullying ect it takes me awhile to realise. Anyways I want this off my chest I feel like if I tell anyone in my family or partner they won't understand. (I will mention it but I won't expect much)

So I work in a school (lunchtime supervisor) I absolutely love it, I'm obviously a kid myself always have been don't worry I do act mature, I'm also a mum of 4 so yes I love kids company 😂 I've been in my job for almost 7 months, I'm still Infact finding my feet because not one person showed me how things worked, where first aid was, I went in blind but I'm sort of getting it now. Today was a scorcher the school yard is like a suntrap it's terrible, this week is my turn on the yard, my walkie talkie was abit muffly I couldn't hear certain things I was starting to feel overstimulated from the heat and loads of kids talking at the same time as me trying to hear what the others where saying, so I let the girls no I couldn't understand anything, and apologised that things didn't run smoothly.

I'm getting ready to leave and the "elder" I will call her because she's old came up to me and shouted "are you deaf"? It took me back tbh because she's been so nice, she then proceeded to say "I called you 3 times" literally couldn't hear anything, I explained this but she ignored me and proceeded to have a Conversation elsewhere, I feel humiliated, small and it's playing on my mind over and over and now I feel work won't feel as enjoyable knowing I've been spoken to like one of the kids, I don't think it was necessary she could of worded it differently and not infront of everyone. I can't win at life, I'm over thinking and now think I'm useless at my job because of this. I'm trying to forget but my thoughts don't allow it, I'm hoping tommorow is better day!.

Thanks for reading if you got to the end 😅

She probably should have been more polite, but she's probably concerned because you need to be able to get hold of each other if an emergency occurs for the children's safety, so you do need to think through as to how you can deal with this situation in a way you are comfortable but also maintains the safety for the children.
If you normally respond she may have been worried about you, which means she may have come across sharper than she intended.

Having said that she probably forgot about it before she got home, and won't think about it again, so don't worry about it.

Oh I totally understand the emergency situation but the walkie talkie was at fault it just wasn't performing how it's suppose to, we have complained about them but nothing gets done, now that you've explained the possibilities I'm hoping they could be the case rather than having a go at me, she was very abrupt about it and I just felt so small, I'll try to get over it but it's going to take a little while 😕.

She was rude, and an bit unprofessional doing it infront of the children. Maybe she was worried/stressed and took it out on you.

Unfortunately that’s life, she’s probably already forgotten about it, try to shake it off and start fresh tomorrow.

She was rude and unprofessional. Even if you are frustrated with a colleague you should always treat them with respect. You're not in the wrong here.

I agree with the first two replies, but I am also concerned about the dc that you are being paid to look after, if you become overwhelmed just during an ordinary lunchtime session, not even dealing with an issue or emergency.

I was starting to feel overstimulated from the heat and loads of kids talking at the same time as me trying to hear what the others where saying, so I let the girls no I couldn't understand anything, and apologised

I was overstimulated from the heat and yes children (I was alone on the yard usually someone else is with me) , this would not affect my performance If there was to be an emergency though, I switch quite quickly with situations for whenever aid is needed, but that's besides the point, the point I'm making is whom I work with abruptly called me out over an error with the walkie talkie, she didn't even give me a chance to explain myself it was like I was one of the children.

It really isn't beside the point if you are there to support the children, and not able to do it.

I'm perfectly fine doing it, I'm very entitled to feel overwhelmed and overstimulated on days that's aren't going well it's not as if I'm flying off the handle around them because I'm not and never will, I'm hiding these feelings and emotions till I'm home, same as the teachers they get in the same way, you clearly haven't worked in a school and clearly haven't a clue. They wouldn't hire me if they thought I couldn't handle it. Keep your judgement to yourself, I didn't ask for it, I wanted something off my chest and I've handled it.

you clearly haven't worked in a school and clearly haven't a clue

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