Could the way I am /feel be PTSD

[Lostwithin]

I have lost track of time because I have had so much stuff going on one thing after another . But anyway a while back I was posting alot about My DS he was 16 at the time he was being extremely aggressive and sometimes violent to me . To the point I kicked him out . Because I could not cope anymore. He stayed with his sister for a bit then he came back home. To be honest i got ripped apart on here for kicking him out
But i was scared of him My other kids were seeing things they should have. Social services became involved and did say it came under domestic. But ds did get some support in order to get home .

Ds is still getting support and he has improved alot . He's not smashed the house up and he's not been violent. But when I'm on school runs he rings down my phone . His tome seems very demanding wanting where I am. If I pop to the local shop 2 min walk . He phones me demanding to say where I am. What am I buying.

Dd bedroom is above his and if dd accidently drops something so just 1 bang he rings me from his bedroom telling me to tell her to stop.

When we had a social worker she advised me not to force dd to go everywhere with me. Because thats not normal living . Today I took my took youngest out to the park . I did not even make it to the end of my road. And ds is ringing down my phone:

Ds; what shall I do if she starts banging, :me : well ignore if its a couple of bangs she may be moving bits about or accidently drops something . Ds: no she does it on purpose. I can tell. Me: me you can't know that for sure. Ds I do though. Me: I don't have a magic wound . I do not have the answer. I can't say much about something that has not happend.

When ever he does this . I see his name on .my phone . His voice is quite deep when he talks to me . And I just feel like he's going to get aggressive. It feels like he talks at me rather than to me. I feel all churned up inside and I think something is going to happen. And I just think please just leave me alone .he's not actually done anything wrong. But I feel like something is going to happen. It does not. But I can't shake it off.

Oh OP I remember seeing your posts before and I’m sorry to hear you’re still struggling. I know you say he’s not actively being violent now, but what he is doing is still not okay. Ringing you constantly whenever you leave the house and demanding to know where you are, what you’re doing etc is still him doing something wrong, albeit it’s better than him being physically violent it is still not okay. I’m not surprised you feel the way you do when you are having to live like that, if this was a husband or partner you’d be advised to contact Womens Aid or similar and seek help to leave.

Thank you. I do think the things I Im talking about do come under the normal teenage bracket . But I'm not sure if how i feel about it is normal.

I feel put of ringing the gp because you have to call at 8am. That's when I'm on the school run on public transport. I have no privacy at all.

@lostwithin you don't have to tell the GP receptionist the reason why you're seeking help if you're on public transport, just tell them you are not in a private area so cannot give further details but need an appointment. I hope your situation improves soon 💕

That's an idea . I might do that. It feel like when the actual gp does call back it's like they talk at you. At speed really puts me of. I wish I could just email them.