I’m in a y3 class , I’ve been here since Feb . They are a tricky class . Everyone has told me they have always been like this . No teacher wants to cover them ,they have a reputation for being the worst class in the school . It’s not their fault ! There are a lot of needs in the class.
But , I feel like I have lost control . They just don’t listen to me - nothing works . I have tried to be positive with rewards and now I’m at the point that I feel like all I’m doing is shouting . The only way to get their attention is shouting - and even then it’s only 5 mins . So it’s like I’m just continually shouting to get them to that point and then get 5 min learning time then repeat. Every lesson is a battle ! They continually talk over me , get out of seats , shout out . I’m so ill at the moment with a sore throat and a sore neck which I know is from shouting as I can feel it and that’s led into a cold . I’m absolutely drained .
I have one child who’s autistic and I know I have made massive progress with him . But the rest - I have really good children who I feel like I’m causing to be too anxious to ask anything because of my shouting ( I don’t know if this is me overthinking ) , and the rest I feel like I’m just background noise and they have no respect for me. They don’t care about any reward I try to put in place for them to earn and they don’t care about any consequence I give . The TA tells me it’s not me , every teacher becomes like this with them and the head tells me I’ve turned the class around but I don’t feel like I’m the teacher I want to be .
One asked me today “ do you even like it here because you’re always sad “ 😢😢 I don’t want them to think that