For some background I had a horrible childhood where I was starved regularly. Due to this I grew up with food issues. When I got older and could buy my own food and make my own decisions I ended up bingeing on everything I was deprived of, mostly sweet food. I was lucky that I didn’t gain weight from it but years later when I started a family I knew I had to be sensible and look after my health. I stopped eating unhealthy food for several years and felt and looked amazing.
I went through some horrible situations over the years and stress pushed me to food. I had good and bad times but I always stopped overeating when I was in a better situation.
Forward to now I’ve completely lost control.
I’m in a good place in my life (although I’m on anti-d for anxiety) yet the sugar addiction is unreal. I drink the equivalent of 2 large bottles of Coca Cola a day, I NEED to have cake in the morning or I feel weak and shake until I have sugary food. Dinners are mostly healthy but I have the occasional take away. I’ve started to gain weight for the first time and I feel and look awful. I can’t not have sugary food or drinks first thing, and it tends to continue throughout the day. It’s not only unhealthy and making me miserable but it’s also costing a fortune. I’m always hungry even if I have a large meal. I know I fear being hungry because of my childhood so I never let myself get to the stage of feeling peckish, I fill up when I can.
I tried to detox myself but I couldn’t make it to lunchtime, I needed the coke to feel ‘normal’. It was suggested to try fruit as it still has sugar and may help me cut down but it didn’t do a thing for me as it’s so far gone now. Even fizzy water didn’t help. I’ve been adding more and more sugar to things like tea, porridge etc as I don’t notice it anymore.
Im really embarrassed it’s got to this point. I wish I didn’t crave it or feel rubbish if I don’t have it. I have permanent headaches. I was tested for diabetes last year which came back clear despite my hypoglycaemia symptoms. I know there’s a chance if I carry on that I will get diabetes. I get out of breath so easily now and struggle to do much, it makes me feel awful for my children because they’re used to me running around with them but I find it really hard now. I’m not even obese but an extra 20 lb than I’m used to is taking it’s toll plus a shit diet causing fatigue and weakness.
Can anyone share their stories how they gave up sugar and never looked back please?
Any tips or recommendations would be really appreciated.