For the past 6 months or so I’ve just been feeling generally dissatisfied with life. I have a lovely DH and 2 children but work is hard- I work in the NHS so despite being senior and v highly educated my salary isn’t great and I’ve got the ceiling for it really. I worry constantly about how much harder nursing is going to get, the quality of our children’s education and how that’s going down the pan (they’re 5 and 7), the future etc.
I recently had a bee in my bonnet about wanting to emigrate but DH doesn’t want to. Now I just feel Mooney over all the ‘better’ places we could be living and get stuck in life. I haven’t been sleeping for ages- can’t get to sleep, keep waking up, waking up before 6am.
I need to be grateful for what I have, I need to stop worrying, I need to get over the consequence of my career choice and I need to get over not being able to move away. But how?!?