37 weeks pregnant and so sad..

[Boohoo123456]

I’ve not hard the best of pregnancies. Lots of sickness and various outside stressors… (unplanned pregnancy) much older sibling.

However, 34 weeks really took a turn for the worst and I feel constantly like I am dreading the future and I’ll never feel myself again. It’s like if I see photos or anything that reminds me of my pre pregnant self, I feel like I’ve died.

i had to change a lot due to the pregnancy so this might be why… but nothing dire.

i have a supportive partner and parents but i I am just Crippled with anxiety and sadness about what’s to come and so worried I’ll sink into PPD. I also have intrusive thoughts which I just ignore but aren’t nice.

i am on the waiting list for therapy but I haven’t even had an assessment yet so I think it’ll be a white until I can talk to someone:

I am wondering if anyone had any experience of feeling this way and did it get better when baby came ?

I want nothing more to enjoy this baby but every time I think about him, I think how I’ll be depriving my other child from attention, money, resources that she very much needs. And I feel extremely guilty for both and the worst mother to walk the planet.

I feel pathetic and hopeless and I am so angry at myself for not foreseeing the impact this pregnancy would have on me and the family. I hate to say it but I feel like I’ve made a huge mistake. I feel awful to write that… and love my my baby but feel an absolute crap mum. And j am so worried my mental health will take a nose dive as it’s already so fragile… I just want my children to be happy and loved and they need a well adjustment mum for that to happen. I only have two weeks to go u til my C section.

Thanks in advance

My brother is 8.5 years older than me and we are very close and always got on really well. I’m sure your little girl will be thrilled to have a little brother.

This is lovely. Thank you so much ♥️

can I ask how old you were when you had your third ?

i am the same about change and uncertainty, fine with it before kids when children’s lives are gambled with - it finishes me off! Hence why I was so set on not having another. Let’s hope it all works out.. 🤞

yes I feel that I’ve lost all my fun and spirit and that I’m just going to be a boring mum with the baby from now on… a proper mummy mum! 🙈

I was late 30s!
And believe me, it is bloody impossible
to feel fun and spirited with a big bump, tiredness, no alcohol, and legitimate worries about the future! Pregnancy takes the fun out of everything. For me it’s a worrying, grey time full of tiredness. But then the baby comes and I feel like the sun starts to come out again. If you are naturally a fun loving full of zest mum, you WILL be that person again!!

♥️