My 18th
My mother is a narc,my father enables her and I'm the scapegoat
She gave me a tenner and told me to get a 'beer and a takeaway'
I sat,with my ex,on the floor of his dark bedsit and ate it
No presents or even a card-just a £10 note
2 years later,my brother had a posh meal out for his 18th,at the most expensive restaurant she could book,months in advance (endless food,beers,balloons,banners,presents etc and lots of friends along) and again with my twin brothers 4 years after that (same as my other brothers-it went on for hours)
It wasn't the money spent at all-it was the fact that my 18th wasn't worth the effort
(I'm now nc as she tried to pull the same stunt for my 21st-she refused to do anything for it until my brothers told her that it wasnt fair-so we went for a cheap meal at the nearest pub,no friends,no beers-nothing,just what she could book on the day)
My present was a cheap watch (I don't wear watches) still with the sale sticker on it and not wrapped-my brothers got watches worth a few hundred and a massive pile of presents each (all beautifully wrapped)
It was like sitting in a wake-eat and run-it was all over within the hour-none of my friends,just the members of my family,sat,grimly eating,no talking or laughing allowed
Again,it wasn't about the money at all-it was the fact she had to be told that I was worth going out for-and she claimed she'd forgotten the date of my birthday and had to be reminded,and she had to be nagged for weeks to put something together (she loves organising stuff-its not wife work for her-she has to be in charge of events,she loves the praise for being good at pulling things together)
Fast forward to my 43rd birthday
We'd lost my darling fil in the Feb,had him cremated in the march (covid) and we didn't want a fuss for mine in april-i couldn't have felt less like celebrating so we spent it,under the dark cloud of loss,at home
I miss that man so much