I'll try and keep this as concise as possible.
I was with Ex for 12 years. Starting when we were teenagers. We had what seemed like a really nice life. 2 children, nice cars and a gorgeous house in a lovely location. This all meant a lot to me as grew up in an unstable situation. We bickered about the usual things but never had any reason for a big blow out argument but even with the kids we seemed to have plenty of us time as well.
However 18 months ago he told me he wasn't happy and that he didn't think we worked as a couple anymore. I was utterly devastated. He's literally all I've ever known. He moved out and within a few months he was seeing someone else. I don't know if there was overlap. Though it breaks my heart there probably was.
Tonight he called me and told me that they are getting married next year. He wants to tell DD tomorrow.
We were engaged for 8 years and he always had a reason (I can now see that they were excuses) not to do it. No matter my suggestion there was always a reason why or he wanted to wait etc.
I feel so gutted. All I wanted for so many years was to marry him. Sounds very silly but I wanted to be Bride and have our girls be bridesmaids. I don't know how ill face him tomorrow. It's like all those years of being together meant nothing. That he loves her more than he ever loved me.