I’m an anxious person anyway, but lately I’ve been finding something new to worry about every day. Every time it’s relating to our rainbow baby and whether they’re still healthy 🌈 I’m almost in the second trimester now but despite a couple of really positive early reassurance scans, one only a few days ago, I am still as nervous about keeping baby safe and worried about having a loss again even though rationally that is extremely unlikely at this point.
Worries have included: what I’m eating, if I’ve drunk enough (feeling sick if I think I haven’t), concerns about breathing in cleaning spray whilst cleaning or others cigarette smoke if I walk past someone in the park who is smoking, running up the stairs too fast, my cat landing on my tummy, accidentally inhaling rice instead of swallowing it - not even sure I did this one - rinsing fruit properly.
I was hesitant to post this as I’ve been told before on here that I am being insensitive to those who have had losses and need to relax and enjoy my pregnancy instead or ruining it for myself. None of it’s intentional and I wish I could switch my overactive mind off.
It’s ALL me and DH have ever wanted, baby is so loved already and will have everything they could ever need. My worries fixate around wanting to protect them which I suppose must be a normal motherly instinct but perhaps not to the extreme I have been feeling it. I know how important it is for baby (and me) that I am as calm as possible and get a grip on these worries, or at least find a way to manage them otherwise I’ll just always continue finding new things to worry about and drive myself a bit potty.
Has anyone got any advice? Please be kind🥰 I know the obvious is to keep talking about it with professionals. I have and will do this but the NHS wait times and services in my area generally aren’t that great so want to think outside the box and ask for recommendations for anything else that might help more: private, podcasts, wellbeing tips or words of wisdom.
Thank you in advance lovely people!