I’m sorry but I’m just so utterly exhausted tonight. It feels like absolutely nothing goes my way at the moment. Two years ago my mum died of cancer and I don’t have a close bond with MIL. There is no “motherly” figure in my life. I’m an only child with only my dad and an uncle ( mums brother) who doesn’t bother with us, mainly due to being a conspiracy theorist. I have no cousins, aunties etc. I have a few mum friends but no one close. I have a three and a half year old who is very full on. He goes to nursery while I work three days per week. My job is ok but quite under stimulating. My partner is self employed and works long hours. I have Alopecia and just after my hair was growing back at Christmas it has all fallen out again. Just small strands left. I used to have lovely, thick brown hair. Considering shaving it all off. I’m on strong immunosuppressants for this which make me feel awful. I have a constant struggle with my weight. Try to get out running most days which helps. Even today I’d arranged to meet some friends but had to cancel at the last minute as I started with a sickness bug that my partner and DS have had. I’d been looking forward to meeting up for a while and with my mum passing, having no family and my hair loss I’m just sick of having no luck. I feel like my friends will hate me because I cancelled on them. Irrational I know, as there will be other chances over Summer. I think I could do with speaking to a counsellor really to bash out my feelings but with no one to look after DS that’s not possible and I don’t like the thought of doing it over the phone. Sorry for the long post but I’ve come to bed early and everything is just going round in my head.