I dint know why in writing.
All my friends are at work.
I am finding life so hard.
Ive been off work for a month. I don't feel any further forward. I've had my meds changed. I'm having over the phone counselling every week.
I have 2 children. One with diagnosed additional needs. My other child a girl I'm certain has autism. Her school say she is fine. We've got a family support worker helping. My dd is such hard work. My ds it feels we've got him sorted it's hard buy he's OK. My dd I just don't know how to deal with the meltdowns and obsessions and clinginess.
I've started processing sa that happened when I was a child but more so the fact that my parents didn't believe me. And also how controlling my dad was and is. Not only to me but my dm.
It feels like its all happening all over again. Like I'm reliving it.
My poor dh is exhausted. He is doing so much as I feel emotionally exhausted from life. I'm so worried about him.
I cant see how I can ever get back to normal life again.