Name changed for this.
I'm just trying to work out whether this is something I should 'deal with' or whether it's nothing at all.
When I was about nine and for a couple of years a boy on my street who was 3/4 years older used to make me do stuff to him. He touched me and vice versa. We simulated sex. There was some sort of oral sex though I had no idea what I was doing. I didn't want to but he wouldn't give me the key to my house until I did, that sort of thing. Our families were close and spent weekends together etc.
I don't think it bothers me now but I do often wonder about it but imagine most kids have something like this anyway, even if it's just experimenting. Some of the things I don't remember thinking I didn't want to do for example. Though by the end I hated it.
So is this abuse? Typing it out now I really think it is and that I've perhaps minimised it.