32 and feeling blue

[Wondrousplace]

My birthday is coming up soon and I can't help but reflect around this time of year on how things are going. I am actually feeling pretty low about myself. I've been promoted to a wage I'm really happy with but my job fills me with anxiety and dread. We're soon moving into a bigger house which relies on me continuing in this role. Our DS is 3 and is showing a lot of signs of autism. I feel like I can cope with this and support him but am filled with worry about his future. I am the heaviest I have ever been as I navigate trying to replace healthy habits with binge eating when it all gets too overwhelming. I look at myself and have begun to just accept this greying, pale flabby thing in the mirror. I'd love to hear some words of wisdom you'd give a woman in her early 30s to make the best of this time and herself?

What would you change if you could?

Which of the answers to the above do you have control over?

Work on one of those at a time. Personally I like a quick win to feel like I've achieved something then I look at the rest.

As for your son's future, trust that you will be there and that you have the resilience and capability to handle it. You can't control it so you need to have faith in yourself and then focus your energy on more immediate concerns.

Sometimes I have fantasies of starting again completely. I feel so full of regret and unsure of where to start. I think about things like getting the house in order before we move and feel positive as that is definitely something I can do whereas the others feel insurmountable.

Thank you for the advice re DS. You are right of course.