Any doctors about to talk me down? Smoking related.

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So I realise this is probably nuts and I do not have health anxiety but I’ve got myself into quite a frenzy here.

I stopped smoking a couple of years ago. I have a sort of breakdown this past week and in the last 30 hours I’ve smoked 30 cigarettes.

I’m done but have I likely done something terrible to myself? Not relapsing or having 30 overall but going from none at all to a shit ton, without any build up. Is this likely to prompt something terrible in my formerly weakened lungs? I’m really panicking.

I know I’m stupid, before anyone starts. I’ve literally been suicidal at various points this week and had very little sleep. I won’t do it again now I’m pulling myself together but when you don’t care if you die, you don’t think about these things.

Above anything else. If you are feeling so low and suicidal, then please please please talk to someone. Please contact the Samaritans. They are totally non judgemental and will listen to you on your terms.

@Hakunatomato Thanks but I don’t need to and I just want advise on the question - but felt like I’d get some grief on here if I didn’t explain why.

Or please talk to us on here. We will listen and may be able to help or advise you. You are not alone.

I don’t need the Samaritans. Or any of that sort of help.

I had a bereavement and a breakup and lost my mind for a second. I’ve been feeling much better today but had already started the smoking and just kept going for some stupid reason.

OP you won't have done any major harm. You might have a bit of a sore throat or chest from smoking too many cigs but that's about it.

New day new start OP, every cigarette you don’t smoke from now on is a step nearer to improved health

Thank you, lovely folks.

I just watched someone wither with COPD and die of lung cancer so I went off on a panic.

I’m so cross with myself. I haven’t smoked for so long (but I do do lozenges for IBD and I ran out when I was overseas - hence the giving in). No more.

On the smoking thing. I once smoked 30 cigarettes in around 24 hours on 2 flights from Sydney to London (mid 90’s) and I felt dreadful. A doctor friend suggested it may be mild nicotine poisoning and to try a bit of a detox, milk thistle, lots of healthy food. I felt fine after a day or two. It was just a bit of an overload of toxic chemicals that my body was trying to process, bit like after a drinking binge. The liver and kidneys would have been very busy.

@Hakunatomato Thanks for that. I mean, I’ve done 30+ in a day when I used to smoke but I figured it wasn’t a shock to my lungs back then! 🙂