Inspired by the superbly entertaining CF karma thread.
I have a bit of a desperate need for justice with things which sometimes spills over into the want for revenge/vengeance but have successfully kept spiteful acts of revenge in my imagination only. I know that the best revenge is a life well lived and try to put that into practice now, or at least take positive action as my “revenge”. I find it rather poetic that my revenge is something entirely unnoticed by the party who wronged me but hopefully has put some good out into the world.
The first time I truly did this on purpose was when I was feeling very upset about being left out of my mother’s big birthday celebration. We’ve had a tricky relationship over the years but I thought we were past that and we’re doing really well. When I found out that they were throwing a party and I was NFI I was incredibly hurt.
A year or so later a friend was having the same big birthday so I offered to host a party for her, we organised it and a great night was had by all. When she asked to pay I said that it was covered because we hadn’t been able to make a similar contribution to my mother’s party due to being NFI we were happy to pay it forward as it were. This made my friend happy and me happy. And my mother knows nothing of it because why would she.
Does anyone else have a similar outlook?