I'm utterly depresssed

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I don't want to go into the exact details but I am going through a few different challagnes.

Work is not going very well. My work still wants me to work and I am still employed and there's no fear of me losing my work but they want me to apply to a different organisation to get 8 hours a week. So this aspect is so stressful.

I have an aging mother who is displaying some challaging behaviours.

I am trying to support my partner through surgery.

I am getting harassed my a disgruntled ex friend and the authorities never wanted to helpe when I went to them a few years ago for help and she still continues to this day.

This is all too much for me now. I am trying to do my best but it's never good enough. I am utterly utterly utterly depressed. I buy fresh food every week with an online grocery shop but often I cants even bring myself to cook for any more.

My bedroom is a mess and I haven't cleaned my room since last summer and it's so dirty and I can't even bring myself to clean my room.

I developed a bad habit of going to bed without brushing my teeth. I used to live looking after my teeth but now I just fall into bed.

I am utterly utterly utterly depressed. There's just so many problems and so many people eager to pull on me and my time and energy and it's all so much.

I'm so sorry you are feeling so low It sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now.
A GP visit may help.
Could you tidy/ clean your bedroom for only 15 minutes per day over the next month so it gets better in small steps? If you can get that sorted it will give you a nice place to relax/ retreat to.
Hope things improve for you soon x

I don't think I can even stomach 15 minutes a day. I will aim for about 10 minutes twice a day over a weekend maybe.

There is just so much crap thrown my way and it's just becoming too much for me now.

I only shower about once every 6 weeks or there abouts. I just can't stomach it.

OP, please forget about the bedroom for now.
Showering more regularly and cleaning your teeth more often will be far more beneficial than a tidy bedroom.
Could you face a bath instead of a shower? Plenty of bubble bath and just lie in it for a while?
If you can't face cleaning your teeth have some mouth wash and a bowl by your bed and give your mouth a rinse. It isn't ideal but it is better than nothing.
Obviously, it goes without saying that you urgently need an appointment with your gp. I hope you feel better soon 💐