Parent/guardian/carer, basically any type of guilt - how do you deal with it?
Im an emotional mess right now. My declining current health, as much as I try and protect DC from it, is affecting them.
DS2 (7) has ASD, he’s had maximum 4 hours broken sleep because he doesn’t want to leave my side and “look after me”. He’s been okay in the holidays because we’ve been together or he’s been with my parents.
I provide a lot of reassurance I’m okay etc but when I can’t hide physical symptoms sometimes it’s hard to.
He’s gone to school okay though, thank god 🙏
DS1 loves school and has had a few weeks off between emergency surgery/easter hols so his lack of sleep was nerves so I’m sure he will be fast asleep early tonight. He (and his brother) have nurture sessions every afternoon. It especially helps DS1 with his emotions.
I basically feel like I should give up being a parent as they deserve so much better and I don’t want to fuck up their childhood (excuse the laungage), any more than I already have.