Hi everyone, not really sure why I’m typing this but feel like I need some support in some way. Or just to hear from people who may have been through similar.
My lovely DS(20) has had some challenges all his life. Traumatic birth that left him with some problems for the first few years, then long term illness followed by mental health problems to this day. I’m pretty sure I was badly affected by the birth but there were so many other things to worry about I didn’t realise or address it. I just know it took many years to feel any way ‘normal’ after having DS.
I also had to pause my career for a decade to look after DS (my choice but I think possible PND may have played a part in that).
Supportive, loving DH but just not very proactive if that makes sense. He would do what I asked him to do but didn’t think of it by himself.
So, I’m early 50s and DS is 21 this year. Great young man but still has some challenges.
I had an early menopause so have been dealing with that.
The biggest issue for me is the worry and anxiety about DS. He is going through a MH issue at the moment that means he doesn’t sleep and I am always awake whilst he is (not necessarily with him), just in case. I’m exhausted and don’t know how much longer I can do this for. DS has counselling support. I also work FT in a senior role.
We have been through years of counselling.
I'm sorry about the length of this post. I think I may just be feeling sorry for myself at the moment. There isn’t anything anyone can do. Please be kind.