Vile intrusive thoughts

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For some reason my anxiety is really high. Mainly because I’m stressed with work. I was getting changed and I was stood by the picture of my god and in my head all that kept going round was “I wish my sister would stop talking to me” “I wish my brother would stop talking to me”

I DO NOT wish this in the slightest. I was literally running to get out the room because I felt like I didn’t wanna say any of this near my god.

Do I ask for forgiveness. I didn’t mean a word. It’s so frustrating and part of my adhd ocd.

any advice…yeah I have therapy.

Not sue what your faith is. But the Christian God will not hold an illness against you and that is what OCD is, so you don't need to ask for forgiveness for the thoughts. Are you on medication for anxiety at all? in my experience is has been a great help in lowering the anxiety levels that cause these thoughts.

I used to take St John’s wort. But sometimes these thoughts just randomly happen. Mainly when I’m near my god. It’s like because I care and pray (I know not everyone does and that’s fine) that I get nervous. The thoughts happen in my head and I just hate when they start. It just starts off small and grows

Please go to your GP and ask for medication. OCD is a horrible thing, but meds can and do make a HUGE difference. My DS2 (adult) has OCD and trust me his intrusive thoughts were far far worse... he was terrified to go out because he was so scared that he was dangerous (he's not)
He's on Sertraline and also had CBT and it literally saved his life... he is so much better and happier now and his anxiety is well controlled.

And God is loving, whichever faith you follow (and would probably want you to seek help ).

It’s vile. Like why on earth would I never wanna speak to my sister again. Like it’s stupid. I always wanna talk to her. And on top of that I then get scared. It’s such an awful thing to happen and it used to happen but when it’s like this it’s like a fleeting feeling which then just ends with me overthinkinh it and going over it 200 times in my mind. I do try meds but sadly they spaced me out too much.