I have had no contact from my mother for many many years. She left my dad when I was 13. I tried to have a relationship with her but she just did not want to know. I tried so hard . I tried a handful of times as an adult as well . In the end I gave up. I thought I can't make her be my mum. And she had no interest in her grandchildren either. The thing is I know that I never ever did anything wrong to her . There's never been an argument nothing
But yet she took an interest in my other siblings and their families. Even the ones that did do her wrong.
I did bump into her about 5/6 years ago in London I had to take my son to the hospital. I saw her and was going to walk past her buy I decided to say hello . It was litterly a sentence each. And I just felt nothing. It was like when you see the same people on your travels in the morning and you give then a nod but you don't really know them.
Anyway my sister contacted me to tell me that my mother's partner has contacted her saying that over the past year my mums health has gone down hill. She spebds most of her time in bed. She can't walk without assistance. And can't get up from a chair on her own and has lost alot of weight. And her memory is also bad. He is looking to put her into a home. And if any of us have any suggestions that we should make contact. I doubt very much my mother even remembers who I am.
I don't really know why I have posted this.
I don't know how I'm meant to feel . I feel sorry for her but i also feel angry and upset with her . Which is very selfish of me.