Two weeks ago I was booked for babysitting for next weekend. I like the couple and their children and I accepted. I like babysitting for them.
However since then, there is so much happening. Work was a night mare for me last week and again this week. It is so stressful. Not only that there were sick people in work and I was exposed to their sickness and now I am not well. I am not dying and it's just a head cold but it's still nasty. I need to keep on going when my chest is sore and my head is sore. Every bone in my body is sore sore. But it doesn't feel like a flu. I dont feel nauseous or sick.
I am just so so so so so tired and sick. Not only this my work is laying it on thick and strong. The physical hours are one matter but they want me to work on courses and read their online platform of policies and I am absolutely stumped as to when I am allowed a break from any of this.
I am going into this weekend, tired after my week and yesterday in work was a fucking nightmare so much so I came down with a migraine. It was so stressful.
I woke in care. I was in the kitchen preparing a meal for a person I was caring for and they can't be left alone for a minute. I turned my back for a moment just to turn around to find the person had stripped naked from the waist down. I didn't discover a shit on the floor until a slipped on it. I swear to fucking god, I wanted to kill myself right there and then. There has to be an easier way to make a living then helping people who are not well in their minds and who don't appreciate it.
I am going into this weekend just so sore and sick with another week next week.
I just need a breather and break from work and minding people and my heart just isn't in the heart to babysit any more next weekend. Would it be ok to cancel?