Three 2 week waits all at once

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Not sure what I want from this, maybe just feeling a bit isolated. Maybe I just need my head wobbled and kicked up the bum to just get on with it and stop wallowing? The friends I'd normally talk to all have some serious shit going on so I don't feel I can burden them with my whinges.

I've just been put back on a 2 week pathway after post meno bleeding started again (I don't think it is cancer). Had that last year too and got the all clear but i'm also feeling unwell. Pains in my joints (it's bad enough to wake me), tired. Just recovered after months of post-viral illness so it's a blow. I also had a routine mammogram yesterday. I'm just so fed up of not feeling 100% despite exercising, good diet, resting and full HRT. I need to be at full power to support my family and friends.

My poor, usually incredibly healthy, DH is also not well. He's on 2 urgent 2 week pathways at the moment - one for potential cancer (lump) and one for possible brain tumour. Our DS is not coping well with the stress of it all (saw DH scan letter 🙄) so is on the verge of a meltdown (has a history of mental illness).

One of our other kids is just recovering from major surgery too, which was pretty stressful and just distressing to see them suffer so much (op a success though 😊).

It's all just a bit much today and I'm sitting in bed crying feeling like I can't lean on my IRL support network. I'm hiding from eldest chilld as I don't want to see me upset. Everyone else is at work or school.

My plan:
Get some acupuncture sorted
Go for a walk (not big one as my leg /hip is too painful)
Eat a decent breakfast
Have a quiet weekend.
Try to stop catastrophising about DH and his scan next week.

What else can I do to help myself get through this? I know that many of you out there have much harder long term illness to cope with so may have strategies to share.

Oh you poor thing, that’s a lot of worry all at once.

if walking is tricky I would drive to a park and spend time wandering where daffodils and crocuses are popping up, I’d find that soothing.

Thanks @GuessThatGranny I managed to get outside for a pootle in the garden and a walk with a friend.

Big week this week. Brain scan for DH plus other scan for his other lump.

Some of my blood tests came back normal on Friday (NHS app shows them), but worryingly the CA125 has not yet been loaded onto NHS app. The last time this happened it was because the dr needed to see me first to explain the abnormal result and what it meant (last time was inflammation and vit D deficiency). So now I've put 2 and 2 together and made 500 and imagining that CA125 markers are up. The GP obviously has all of the results in, but has chosen not to share them all with me yet. 😐

I've booked myself in for acupuncture this week, hoping that it will help. Just feel like I'm falling apart - joints painful. Unexpected bleeding and general (understandable) anxiety.

Meanwhile my eldest had a mental illness relapse last week, and thanks to our brilliant GP now has medication but is still rather fragile and looks awful. It's like treading on eggshells.

Girding my loins for it all. Hopefully by this time next week the only thing I'll need to worry about is my child with their issues. Hopefully

Deep breaths and lots of distraction is on the cards.