I have had a couple of bad relationships which have impacted my life and mental health hugely. The last one was very abusive and I managed to end it after many difficult years. I have been single for a few years now and trying to be happy on my own. I am scared to get into another relationship, perhaps one day. I do want to have someone special in my life.
I have a teen dc. I don't have many friends or family nearby. Life is very lonely, and I don't know how to turn things around. I am unhappy and get quite upset when I see people having a lovely time with their partners and families. I don't have social media for this reason, because I don't want to know, but when colleagues or friends speak about their plans, it does get me down. I don't wish anyone ill, but I can't help feeling bitter and resentful about how my life has turned out. I blame myself for my choices, and I'm envious of others' happiness. Dc is more independent now so doesn't spend a lot of time with me, which is perfectly normal I accept, although we have a lovely time when we do make plans and do things together.
I know I'm rambling. I'm just quite unhappy and feel trapped and stuck in my life. I'm asking you lovely lot to send me good wishes, prayers, thoughts, positive vibes. Anything.
Wish me love, friends, community, companionship, happiness, joy, laughter, energy, wellbeing and anything else you can think of. Thank you.