I had a termination when I was younger and now I am experiencing a loss of a wanted pregnancy.
It feels like a cruel form of karma. I know it’s not. I’m so devastated, though. I terminated because I thought the timing wasn’t right, we weren’t married or in a good financial position and I thought I was doing the best thing and it would be easy next time. I’m now miscarrying a wanted pregnancy 💔 albeit at a slightly later gestation, so maybe this would’ve happened before anyway. It was a medical termination before so according to Tommys doesn’t increase risk in future pregnancies. Just a really nasty coincidence. Both times we conceived fairly fast (first time one time, contraceptive failure) and second time was after two months of trying.
I have support IRL but from nobody who’s actually gone through it. I don’t know the reason for posting, I have done a couple of posts now but it just feels so wretched. I’m relatively young and we do our best to be healthy, I’d followed the NHS guidelines and done everything was supposed to do. I know when I next get pregnant I’ll be frightened of this happening again, but also don’t want to wait to try again because the only thing that makes me feel better and positive is the idea of moving through this to get our 🌈