I was offered a job in December which I turned down. It would have been a £12k salary increase, the hours I wanted to work got approved with the day off I asked for and it would have been great experience to add to my CV.
when I got offered it I had a full on panic attack because all of a sudden I was terrified of leaving my safe comfortable job and I couldn’t bring myself to say yes. I was in the middle of getting constantly ill as my one year old was bringing home bugs from nursery and I was exhausted, I’m still exhausted. I didn’t feel I could face something new whilst still getting to grips with being a mum and working.
im not that happy at my current job, i dont get much recognition, pay isn’t great for the work i do but its ok, there’s limited progression as its dependant on when people leave and people don’t leave (for good reason to be fair). the people are lovely, I have it very good as they are so flexible (I doubt I’ll find this level of flexibility again) and understanding and let me work from home when im unwell which is what keeps me there. A lot of trust and autonomy. I also have a chronic illness which is why I keep catching bugs from nursery.
im worried I wont find an opportunity like that anywhere again, and that I’ve burnt bridges by turning it down. It was advertised again but it’s gone so I assume someone has been recruited now. I also feel disappointed in myself as pre baby me would have gone for it.
I guess the message of this is don’t be like me and if you find yourself in this position, take the risk. I’m so depressed about it now. Anyone else turned something down that was good and found something else?