Feeling a bit rubbish anyway but my temper is awful... and I feel really bad about the way I behaved earlier.
By 7.45am I'd yelled at DS because he didn't bother putting out his coat and shoes last night and was asking me where they were AGAIN. He's 11 (year 7) and I reminded him 3 times last night to make sure he has everything ready.
I'd yelled at DP just because he was using the bathroom when I WANTED IT
DD (18) because she'd lost her lanyard for school and insisted I'd moved it.
The dog.. because she couldn't decide if she wanted to be in or out.
The kettle for being too slow boiling. I swore at the kettle and called it names I'm losing it aren't I?
The cat... I can't even remember why I yelled at the cat...
EVERYONE for not emptying the bin when it was clearly full or changing the kitchen roll
By 8am I was in tears and everyone was avoiding me even the dog who normally follows me around like there's a magnet
I was horrible. I'm still agitated now, meant to be working, crying and typing this in the toilet.. I just want go home and cry and then sleep and I can't... and I've got a headache and for some reason the skin on my chest is itchy...
And there's no discernible reason and everyone would probably be happier if I wasn't here... I'm so tired and I had such awful nightmares and I am so on edge I'm frightend I'm going to yell at someone here.. feel like it would only take the tiniest thing.. thank god I'm not seeing any clients today.