Was cheated on by my ex. Never been confirmed but he behaved in this manner before we actually became a couple 6 years ago. We were fwb and sort of dating would go for food etc. one random day I never heard off him. I then reached out and he just said. I’m seeing someone else. I like them. This time round we were fully together. I became fed up of a lot of things. Addressed them. He then became distant after a holiday. Barely texted me back. I drove to his. He just said “I don’t know if I love you” then his phone was ringing non stop. Just said it was his manager. 3 weeks ago his insta was full of pictures of a new woman.
The proof was there. I didn’t need to know anymore.
But….im scared to date. It’s been 6 months pretty much. But yet, the fear of falling for a man makes me so scared. I gave my ex all I could. And now I don’t know how much I can give again. It’s so scary. I get so frightened to like a man. Even if every box is ticked for me. I feel like I need to keep shutting my feelings down and not fall so fast.
im exhausted. On one hand I want to date. On the other. I’m too frightened