I’ve always felt this way to an extent, I guess I’m just very aware of the value of things: both monetary and time wise.
My parents have both worked all my life and looking back as an adult expecting my own first baby I can see that it probably wasn’t always easy for them to do this.
I was shopping with my mum earlier, we like to potter round the supermarkets together and catch up, sometimes having something to drink in the cafe. We were looking at pyjamas and she asked me if I liked a pair. Thinking she meant for her, I said they were nice. Only realised when we got back to the car that she’d bought them for me and also a little neutral sleepsuit.
I thanked her, she said she didn’t want thanking and kept changing the subject saying ‘it’s for my grandbaby, anyway, you can’t stop me!’
I am thinking about her kindness and I feel so guilty, even though she absolutely wouldn’t want me to feel this way! She’d be laughing if I told her how bad I felt but I just do, I know how much the cost of living crisis is affecting us all whether people admit to it or not.
I know I’ll want to spoil my baby when they’re here (even when they’re my age now) but it doesn’t make me feel any better in the short term.
I think pregnancy hormones have sent me doo-lally!