I've been single about 3 years, for really what is the first time in my adult life. I married very young, now middle aged.
I am genuinely really loving my single life. I've put a real effort into developing it and I'm proud of myself. I liked being married too, but I can see I did lose myself in being a wife and mother, to some extent, for 30 years.
I have a varied group of friends, through some varied interests and have learned to enjoy doing things on my own. A touristy day out on my own, with a restaurant dinner and a glass of wine in the evening is actually one of my very favourite things to do. I like company too, but doing these things alone seems to bring a special level of peace. I'm going on a trekking holiday on my own next week. I'd never want to give that freedom up.
I also enjoy male company and I wouldn't say no to some decent sex, but I really have no ambition to "settle down". I'll never live with a man again. That said, I don't think I'm a ONS or FWB kind of person, sex is emotionally more important to me than that.
So, what I'm saying is, I can't see how you develop a close relationship with a man, when you know you don't really want it to progress the way relationships do. Obviously there's a lot of time and things to happen between first date and that, and I'm overthinking, as I do.
What am I missing?