I’m worried I’m losing my mind

[anon12345676899]

I feel like I’m being sent messages. I’ve had hears of mental health issues but never this. Everything around me suddenly has meaning and I’m scared of silly things like doors. The scariest thing is a lot of its religious, I was raised Catholic but stopped a long time ago.

I’m also seeing things not quite right like patterns in thing abut also normal things look threatening. And I feel like I’m watching a TV programme.

I’m on multiple mental health meds and have a whole mental health team, and multiple diagnoses - though none that are like hallucinations or anything - but I’m scared if I say this they’ll want me to go somewhere. I don’t know what’s anxiety and OCD and what’s actually like the start of psychosis.

this has happened before but gone away within 24 hours or a good sleep, it’s just been these last 2-3 days. I’ve been very stressed out.

It would seem wise to be honest with your MH team and get any help offered. That sounds really stressful.

they shut in 15 minutes, so I’ve probably left it too late. I didn’t go out like I was meant to today, I’ve just had a sandwich a shower and put a load of washing on. I’m sitting watching the washing machine just now as that feels safe.

They have got an emergency number I’ll ring at 5.

It sounds like you are very unwell at the moment , it would be best to contact your team and let them know what's happening. Also let a friend or family member know as well if you can.

I can’t tell family. I don’t think they’d understand.

I’m sorry you’re feeling like this OP, it must be frightening for you.

I also think you should call your mental health team and let them know what’s going on so that they can help you.

Closest friend is away on holiday. I don’t want to let anyone down by being unwell. I’ve got so much I have to do.

I'm wondering if the multiple medications you're taking are interacting negatively with each other.

I think you need to call the team while you’re able to recognise your feelings aren’t normal. Don’t let it escalate. They can adjust your meds to help you. Thinking of you, OP. You’ve done the right thing in posting.

I don’t know, I’m on bisoprolol, sertraline, mirtazapine, codeine, diazepam and cyclizine.

It sounds like whatever is going on, your previous experience tells you that lack of sleep and stress makes it worse. All the things you have to do, can they be delegated/delayed for the sake of your health?

i can’t get through in to my own team so I’ll try the emergency number at 5.

Crisis recovery worker here. Please call the crisis line OP. Or if you have one in your area, a safe haven or crisis cafe (google should tell you if there’s one nearby).

Generally they will do everything to keep you out of hospital. Most areas have a home treatment team/crisis team who consist of drs, nurses and recovery/support workers and will come and see you at home (as much as 3 times a day) until your crisis has resolved.

They will be able to help you, it’s really important you call. I hope you get through and see someone tonight. Please don’t hold back, tell them everything. Look after yourself. I hope you feel better soon.

Spoke to someone, they said someone will call me back tonight to talk more.

That's good, hang in there.

Hi OP, hope you're okay. Do you have a Care Co? If so, call them tomorrow and let them know. Or call OOH, just for someone to talk to, and they'll inform your CC.

I work in first episode psychosis, if you don't mind, what are your other diagnosis? I might be able to help to see if those are possible symptoms of your current difficulties.

As above, you won't be hospitalised for something like this (unless things deteriotare rapidly, of course) So please don't worry about that. Hospital is a last resort!

Hi, a GP rang and said it wasn’t appropriate for them and that I needed to ring crisis but they shut at 8, so I’d have to go through 111 to get a referral over and that there might not be much they can do at this time of night. I feel a tiny bit calmer but still having odd thoughts on and off. I’m not seeing things as much as I was thankfully, earlier I was seeing things out the corner of my eyes, shadows etc and that’s stopped.

I’ve got OCD, complex PTSD, agoraphobia, and panic disorder.

I don’t know if I’ve got a care coordinator no, I’ve got GP, psychologist, psychiatrist and I have seen a mental health nurse but I only see the psychologist regularly.

Thank you x

@anon12345676899 what area are you in OP? You should have a 24 hour crisis line if you feel like you need help tonight.

Call the Samaritans they are available and there to help 116 123.

You will be fine for now. Just keep yourself chilled, and watch some comfort tv.

I've had this same experience, as has my mum actually. More likely than not it will just blow over in a few days or weeks and you'll probably feel a bit bemused but not much more. Maybe you might always wonder if what you're experiencing now was real, but you will by and large just forget about it and go about your life.

As long as you're not going to hurt yourself or anyone else, you will be fine. Don't worry too much, and remind yourself that you absolutely have the self control to stay sane.

But yes, as pp have said, it really could be side effects of your medication combo so ask dr in the week