And now I feel awful. We're going through a bad stretch with our 7yo DS. At the moment he is often unappreciative, obnoxiously loud and will not do what you ask first time round, there's always an argument or backchat which is wearing. He also interrupts conversations constantly (relevant.) He is an angel at school so definitely has it in him to follow instructions.
The days feel long, hard work and full of battles. It's putting a strain on mine and DH's relationship.
We look forward to a slither of time in the evenings where we can unwind and actually talk. Tonight, DS has been in bed since 8ish. He is still awake and has come out of his room many times to ask for things and has cried when we had to go downstairs to get on with some bits. DH had to go back up as DS started crying at being upstairs alone. DH eventually managed to come back down. 5 minutes later, DS comes down saying he can't sleep. I take him back up, and hear DH start to cough as though he is choking. I tell DS I'm going to check on daddy (DH is fine now.) I then hear DS start crying again as I'd left him and he couldn't hear me.
At this stage I ashmedly lost the plot and shouted at him. I know it's part of being 7 but it just feels so selfish and like it's zapping any part of me and us (me and DH.) We can't talk in the daytime as there will be an interruption or loud noise over the top, and we now can't even talk in the evening. It's lonely, isolating, infuriating. I'm such a bad mum to him at the moment as I just find it all so draining and don't know how to turn things around. Feel like I'm going to ruin any relationship with him and that he'd be better off with another mum.