Severe cPTSD need a hand hold

[ScaredAndPanicky]

I suffer from severe complex PTSD. Rooted in abuse and my mum dying when I was young, but also after recently escaping from a 20yr long marriage with domestic abuse.
3 of my closest friends mums all died today. I am trying to be there for each of them but my PTSD is so triggered I feel sick with anxiety. I can't stop having flashbacks about my mum's illness and funeral and my dad abandoning me.
These are the people I would usually go to when I'm struggling, but obviously I can't do that.
I would really appreciate a hand hold so I can try and calm down and sleep.

You're not alone.. Take some deep breaths, maybe a meditation on YouTube for a nice voice in the room with you
Ground, focus on the five senses trick, keep telling yourself date and time and where you are now and that you're not back then xx

I am so sorry, was it a car accident for them all to be together?

No they had all been ill for different amounts of time, I can't believe it.