A handhold for tomorrow please?

[vipersnest1]

I have a prolapse (which has recurred) plus another related problem.
I'm seeing a consultant surgeon to discuss surgery, which I well and truly need. Due to a problem with my pelvic floor - now resolved - I've been going 'round the houses' for over two years, and had put up with major symptoms for a year before that.
My head is all over the place and I'm terrified I will have to wait months and months for the surgery - I'm just about at the limit of pain, issues to do with my prolapse and how it's affecting my mental health now.
How do I deal with it if the wait is a long time? I'm aware that I might be bumped down the queue continuously due to the surgeon also specialising in cancer and I guess I can live with that, but I just don't know how much longer I can bear working without throwing the cards in and going off sick, which I really don't want to do.

Handhold here
And breathe

Don't worry about all the possibilities before you know them

How long have you been suffering from the prolapse? (diagnosed and before)

What treatment have you had so far - stitch, ring?

Write down everything you want to say before you go

Sorry you are going through this

@jackstini, thank you so much for the reply.
I first had repair ops eleven years ago. The rectocele was back fairly quickly (major cockup with laxatives which I was ignorant about) but it has only really troubled me for the last four years or so.
I've never been offered a pessary of any sort (and don't think I'm suitable as I've had a hysterectomy and suspect my vaginal vault has collapsed too). I have seen a women's physio.
Your advice is all good, but I'm a wreck. I just don't know how I will cope (or react when I'm there) if I'm told I will have to wait another age.... sorry to be so negative, but my experience of other NHS services recently doesn't give me much hope, although I might be pleasantly surprised. I really hope so.

Really hoping you are pleasantly surprised too
Sounds like you have really been through it on this 🙁
It can only get better

Thanks, @jackstini, I hope it does.