Anyone else feel like screaming?

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There is so much going on in my head and life right now, some personal (unexpected implosion of my marriage last month for example), some not (people doing horrific things to other people all over the world). I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs to get out all the hurt and anger and frustration and disappointment - all the negative emotions actually.

I feel like scream rooms should exist. I have heard of rage rooms I think, although I'm not sure if we have them in the UK. Will have to Google.

Anyone else want to scream?

I LOVE that old couple. They must remember the toddler years or have a grandchild. My mum and I always make a point of saying ‘don’t worry we have all been there’ if we see a frazzled mum or dad 🥰

I've been carrying this scream round with me since 2015. When it blows it'll be spectacular!

God yes.
I too am joining in the scream.

Yes.. politically, socially, creatively, domestically, I feel like a pressure cooker. Past two days have been piling tension in top of tension. Is it the full moon??

I was so stressed today I felt I was going to have a nervous breakdown at one point. Various tekkie issues on computer. Then a massive irritation with my unpleasant narcissistic elderly mother. Then my GP surgery messing up a prescription. But it was the mother thing that hacked me off the most.

However I don’t know if I was furious or tearful - or both. I didn’t know what to do with all the painful energy. But I thought everything in my life is crap and I cant cope with people anymore.

I am going to spend the next few days decompressing, doing as little as possible. Staying in bed, having baths etc. Luckily I have few commitments after weeks of stress. That’s all I can think of to do to stop myself going ‘mad’

Can I join in too?

. It’s been a shitty few years, due to (in no particular order)

hideously stressful property litigation, massively let down by people we thought we could trust, trying to look after a 5 week old baby and a preschooler who starts school in September, living somewhere too small which we should have left years ago (hence property litigation), MIL with early onset dementia now in a care home, going very low contact with my mum because she’s selfish and unpleasant.

It probably doesn’t help that I’m still very hormonal from giving birth. I feel like I’m massively failing my children because of our home being too small, and I worry so much about the world they have been born into. It’s such a bleak picture.

I hope things look up in every way soon.

I booked a few nights away in a hotel and suddenly realised I would need photo ID to check in. Yep, no desperately needed break for me as my only ID is out of date.

Everything is just piling on top of me and I am over it.

Life is hard, isn't it? For nearly everyone. But reading these posts, I realise I have a couple of things to be grateful for.

Love that story @MorrisZapp!

Solidarity to all those who are experiencing various kinds of pain. If it's at all helpful, there's a Sufi saying: Your pain is your blessing. Your wounds are where the light will enter you...

Joining in...

Me too. After my Mum died I had to be strong for my Dad and younger brother so I used to go out in my car at gone midnight drive to somewhere secluded and scream my head off

Yes absolutely. I normally keep it all in but a few minor issues are tipping me over. I feel like I’m trapped in a pressure cooker and it’s all caving in.

I need an outlet that isn’t self sabotaging. listening to heavy metal whilst weight lifting isn’t quite cutting it anymore.

@108Anj - thank you, reminds me of Leonard Cohen’s song Anthem lyrics

“There's a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in.” Maybe I’ll listen to it later.

Today I’m feeling slightly better. The pain has diminished TG. I’ve decided not to bother doing much for the next 4 days. ‘Dolce far Niente'

I want to stay in a 5 star hotel in the sun for a week on my own with lovely food provided and lovely pools, maybe spa, and nature walks close by. If money was no object I’d shoot off. But then again have I even got the energy to pack and get to an airport? No. Has anyone been anywhere like that?

Like a precious poster I googled health spa for a couple of days but I couldn’t justify it financially so will just potter in my flat, have baths and lie in bed etc.

I might make myself some welsh rarebit on toast for lunch, maybe cook some chocolate cookies later. I bought a poster online just now :). Small things but …

xx

@DoveGreys Don't know whereabouts you are, or if it would appeal, but if you're London-based there's a meditation course on the 1st Sunday of every month at the MA Centre in Bromley. I think it's free. They also do lots of positive stuff like tree planting and service to the community.

*also re staying at a spa I’d have to order great food, room service, booze etc so it would cost an arm and a leg. So then I’d be stressed about that! Much as I’d love to replicate the chilled vibe, my flat’s too much of a mess and no energy to tidy.

It’s kind of all about healing really, for me anyway at the moment, I feel I need so much healing (maybe always have). But healing … how … I wonder …

I found axe throwing a pretty good substitute for screaming... .Go Ape ans various other places do it.

But yes , the world and my life both feel pretty hard going

One of my old teachers was a good'un and used to say how good screaming to let it all out is and would schedule a session in.

Rage Rooms in Braintree Essex.

I need a scream!!