FML - I am feeling so MEH about everything - didn't make it into work today - please help - is this midlife crisis? or do I just need to get a grip?

[JambonOuest]

I know it's January but god I am so fucking fed up.

Just coming out of a tricky time long periods of financial insecurity and some family illness - am utterly burnt out.

I was supposed to be at work today - I got myself into such a sunday night dread state last night that i didn't go in.

any word of advice?

One foot in front of the other.

Things will get better again, but life will likely be worse if you lose your job.

Hope you're feeling a bit brighter today.

That's kind
I am freelance so I won't lose my job - this is just one client but I felt shitty about it.
I am still quite burnt out -not sure how to fix it tbh

Sending sympathy OP, you've had a lot on. It's natural to feel like this, especially in a shitty month like January. Do you think you could be suffering from mild depression? Might be worth looking into if it feels more than just the 'blues'.

Can you afford to take a sabbatical? A few weeks to rest and recharge your batteries? Maybe a week in the sun somewhere?

I have felt a bit like this this month. I’m trying to make sure I get lots of sleep, eating healthily and doing things for myself - painting nails, reading a book etc. it’s helping

OK

I am retired.
Mortgage paid off.
Inheritance in the bank.

I have nothing to be fed up about and for the last week I have woken up with a huge feeling of gloom and doom, normally I wake up happy and it is up to other people to change my mind.

I have for the first time in my life got the January blues and I would have happily lain down on the main road and taken my chances with the traffic. Massive exaggeration but you get the idea. 😂

It will pass, mind yourself and prioritise yourself. It will pass.

Sorry to hear this OP. I do think this time of year makes everything feel ten times worse. Take a few days off and get yourself a few treats, plenty of rest and plan some nice things for the next couple of months.

Im literally dragging myself kicking and screaming through the rest of this month.

Oh OP I hear you feeling much the same as you no reason in particular just feel low was relating a story about me at 17 to my DS and got teary thinking back when life was full of hope 🥹

Ditto op, I've got some significant life stresses right now and I can't seem to shift my negative frame of mind. I'm clinging to hope that the lighter nights and spring coming will make things feel easier to cope with.

@JambonOuest

How are you feeling?

Gosh. I forgot I had even started this thread. I am still fed up and called in sick again today. I have half-written a resignation letter as hate that particular client and know that is part of it.