This is going to seem so stupid, I'm at home on mat leave and have a 7 month old and 2 year old. I've been struggling emotionally recently as my partner is working away. We live somewhere where not much is happening and we are hours away from my friends and family. There is a toddler group on Thursdays and Fridays each week and I spend the rest of the week actually looking forward to those days so that I can actually have some adult company. This week it's been cancelled due to bad weather and I actually feel really down about it and almost lost. It's like those few hours of adult company keep me going the rest of the week, which feels so pathetic to admit.
I have some friends here but they are all relatively new friends and all work so we only catch up every now and then. I want to meet new mum friends and I'm usually pretty good at making friends but right now I feel so down that it's holding me back from reaching out and arranging any meet ups with other mums, but I know I'm then stuck in a cycle of feeling down, not trying to make friends because I feel down and like I'm shit company and making conversation is hard work, so then feeling lonely and so continue to feel down. It's so stupid and pathetic but I know I need to break myself out of it.