TW: rape counselling

[ScaredAndPanicky]

I have finally reached the top of the waiting list for rape counselling - rape in DV and sexual abuse as a child.
I know I need to talk to someone I have been off work for several months with complex PTSD and dissociative disorder and in that time have pretty much blanked out what happened.
When I got the call a few days ago it sent me into a total panic.
Does anyone know what is likely to happen? (I have never had any counselling before). Whilst I know I need to talk about it, the thought of having to think about it scares me completely.

I don’t know the process but I wanted to wish you luck and bump the thread for you ❤️

It's up to you of how you want to proceed and what you want to disclose.
The counsellor will have heard it all before and a lot more.
They will ask you what you hope to get out of the sessions.. they literally can't make it go away or your thoughts go away.. but they can help you to help yourself.. they might offer CBT or something else..
I've gone through both of these for a drug gang rape l had many years ago that comes back to haunt me.. I've just finished 6 more counselling sessions and am paying private for EMDR.
Don't be afraid to cry.. to get angry.. to let your emotions out.
The sessions might seem like they go very quickly and after each one you might wish you had longer. What you talked about will be back in your thoughts and going through your mind a lot.. but after each session it gets easier.
I will say if for some reason you feel like you don't like your counsellor for whatever reason.. please ask to see someone else.
I wish you nothing but the best and l hope you gain something from the counselling and find some peace of mind.🌺