I saw my ex and “father” of my ds today. He’s never bothered to see his son, or to be involved in any way at all. Truth be told I was a total idiot back then and ignored all red flags because I was stupid and besotted. I knew that he had a child already who he did not see or support, but somehow I was stupid enough to believe his sorry tale about his mean and crazy ex. Fast forward and he also discarded me before DS was even born. I don’t regret having my DS, but God it was hard to accept that we had just been dumped like that. Of course I learned afterwards that his other DC’s mother had a similar story to tell.
So today. Strolling around happily with someone else and her DC, carrying the little one on his shoulders like he is the greatest family man in the world. At first I felt nothing really but I have gotten angrier and angrier as the day progressed. He can’t be bothered to support his own children but is happy to play that role for a child that isn’t his own.
I bear no grudge against the new woman in his life or her little girl but I feel so angry with him being happy after being such a tremendous dick to so many people whose lives he has touched.
I hope this anger will go away because I hate being like this, but this really cut to the bone today…